Ok just adding on to Kates tag so read below I guess
1: This was sorta in the summer and at the beginning of the school year I felt super great about myself I was extremely confident and felt like I could do anything and I was really happy with the way I looked
2: Sort of in the middle of the school year sorta?? well whatever I had started to look down on myself after getting a hard awakening from reality and was really not liking myself on the inside or out.
3: Pretty recelty I guess. I felt like I didn't have any *real* friends and absolutely hated myself and how I looked and how I acted. I tried to be confident and everything (like in #1) but the blackness kept seeming to be sucking me in. I would hardly be interested in anything anyone was saying and I tended to just not care. Everything around me seemed perfect but I was just ugly and pathetic and I have the kismesis sign there because I seemed to hate myself more than anyone. And the sticks and stones quote because I realized some of my "friends" were talking behind my back and being just rude to me and laughing at me. I was just an all over depressed
4: Now I guess. Ok so I put the background as a lighter color because things seemed to be lifting but the blackness was still there. I am currently trying to get happier but there's always things pulling me back. I can't exactly laugh the way I used to or smile the same way I used to. It's just a little hard to explain like every feeling I had got thrown into a blender, and it tastes sweet for the first couple seconds it has a deadly after taste making me not want to take another sip. If that didn't make sense to you it meant things seem fine at first but only for a little until I realize whats really happening and it just makes the depression come back again ovwr and over and though I don't want to go through the same process It just happens. And also though alot of people I still can't trust and feel rather lonely at times I still have a couple friends (mostly you guys) I can really rely on. I also started drawing and writing more to calm me down and express myself through instead of falling into that whole again. Though I'm recovering right now I still have a long way to go but I just wanted to thank u all for being there for me.
(was that too long??)
-Montana
1: This was sorta in the summer and at the beginning of the school year I felt super great about myself I was extremely confident and felt like I could do anything and I was really happy with the way I looked
2: Sort of in the middle of the school year sorta?? well whatever I had started to look down on myself after getting a hard awakening from reality and was really not liking myself on the inside or out.
3: Pretty recelty I guess. I felt like I didn't have any *real* friends and absolutely hated myself and how I looked and how I acted. I tried to be confident and everything (like in #1) but the blackness kept seeming to be sucking me in. I would hardly be interested in anything anyone was saying and I tended to just not care. Everything around me seemed perfect but I was just ugly and pathetic and I have the kismesis sign there because I seemed to hate myself more than anyone. And the sticks and stones quote because I realized some of my "friends" were talking behind my back and being just rude to me and laughing at me. I was just an all over depressed
4: Now I guess. Ok so I put the background as a lighter color because things seemed to be lifting but the blackness was still there. I am currently trying to get happier but there's always things pulling me back. I can't exactly laugh the way I used to or smile the same way I used to. It's just a little hard to explain like every feeling I had got thrown into a blender, and it tastes sweet for the first couple seconds it has a deadly after taste making me not want to take another sip. If that didn't make sense to you it meant things seem fine at first but only for a little until I realize whats really happening and it just makes the depression come back again ovwr and over and though I don't want to go through the same process It just happens. And also though alot of people I still can't trust and feel rather lonely at times I still have a couple friends (mostly you guys) I can really rely on. I also started drawing and writing more to calm me down and express myself through instead of falling into that whole again. Though I'm recovering right now I still have a long way to go but I just wanted to thank u all for being there for me.
(was that too long??)
-Montana
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